i sit by the river kali

in the evening
i sit by the river kali
i weep
i cry
i pull my hair, like
i am pulling out each bit of life left in me

the evening takes it leave
night comes and sits with me, by the river kali
i show it my scars
i weep
i cry
i pull my hair, like
i am pulling out every bit of darkness left in me
 - the night gets darker, 
the scanty stars, dimmer

slowly
from the river bank
i pick up my scattered grief
i pick up the bits of me, which had fallen away from me while i was weeping, crying
i hold all of them to my bosom - my grief and the scattered bits of me
and together we jump into the river kali

every evening
i drink my coffee,
and then, 
thus i think of the river kali




**kali is a river flowing through te state of karnataka